Dear Followers--

I am sorry for my last blog. I promise from here on out there will be no more pitty parties about me not dating. I hope that our blog relationships will remain the same. That last post was totally lame and I should probably delete it....but if I do then this post wont make any sense.

I went on a date. Hurray! Right? It was with a friend and I'm sure he didn't read this blog. But I discovered something...I AM ALLERGIC TO HORSES. Sad sad sad sad day. I love riding horses. Now I probably shouldn't because while I was riding I was attacked with allergies that then turned into a cold...so now I have a cold! Brilliant. Thats what I get for complaining about my life. Life is great, and soon I will laugh about my time of life I am in. So for now I will try to enjoy it and not ride horses ever again.

Sincerely--
Me

A date would be nice

So I feel safe writing this on my blog, since I know basically only girls read this. But I am ready to scream it out to the world. I WANT TO GET ASKED ON ONE DATE. Is that really too much to ask for? Its been 2 years. I am sick of it. I live in Provo...central dating zone...and yet I have not been asked out. I am starting to forget how it feels to get ready for a date. Or to get asked on one. Or to have a guy pay for me. Or how the awkward door step scene goes. I miss it. I really do. My brother once told me that if God wanted guys asking me out on dates he would put those guys into my life. So maybe this is all a trail of patience and I am failing miserably. Patience has always been a weak spot for me...I just hope I don't have to wait another 2 years before I get asked out on ONE date (cause that's all I'm asking for).

loosing this battle...

I am dying for warm constant weather. I want it to be summer. I miss the days of going outside and not wanting to run back inside. I miss star gazing, swimming, boating, playing outside, sliding rock and mostly the SUN. Oh I hope these next couple months go by fast and summer comes quickly!

P.S. Updates of my life: I went to Ohio to visit Kyle and Monica and their kids! It was so much fun. I want to go back! I have been commuting with my dad to California for work. It is really tiring, but I like it. However, this is temporary because I had a job interview at my brother-in-laws work. I hopefully will get that job! I will be a secretary, but I will also have the opportunity to get exposed to web development. My good friend Todd is coming back from his mission in a week! I am so excited. As you can tell I'm getting antzy for good weather! Well that is pretty much my life in a nutshell.

All Grownzzed Up

I always have had an admiration for different people. Especially those who seemed to me like they had it all figured out and were the type of people that were unique and it showed. I envied their confidence in their clothing style, personality and everything they did. I always would say, "When I grow up I want to be just like them." I have realized something that I did not realize before. We are all unique, we just show it differently. Some people show it with their clothing style, music style or what not. I have figured out that it is not important. What does matter is that as long as I am confident with who I am nothing else should matter. I still do admire those who are very unique, but I don't envy them any more. I just smile and think to myself, "Good for them." I have to say that looking back from even a couple years I have definitely changed, and it has been for the better.

I never know where these blog posts are going, but I think that's why I love blogs. It really does not matter what you write about as long as its written by you, uniquely you.

Sunday

I am very humbled today. Sometimes I get really selfish and I think I'm the only one who is struggling with this life and I get to a point where I think I know what's best for me. I get impatient and I start getting down about my situation in life. Today I had one of those "ah-ha" moments. Some girl was giving her testimony and talking about her mom who had cancer. I wanted to cry and just leave the room because I felt so selfish. All day I had been fasting for what seemed like "big problems" and I just realized how little they were. I know that my struggles are real and that they mean something to me, but sometimes I get so caught up in them I don't look around to see who may need my help. Why do I think I'm the only one who is not getting asked on dates? Or the only one who is struggling for direction in their life? I am not alone. I know my Heavenly Father loves me, but he also loves everyone around me. I hope and pray that I can be a little less selfish from this day on and try to help others feel loved. I know that today my prayers were answered. Of course they weren't answered in the way I would have liked them to have been, but I know in God's way he answered my prayer. I love this gospel. I love the joy and happiness that is in my life. I love my family and friends. I love the Savior.

I'm just trying my hardest to get a bit better at this thing called life one step at a time.

Yoga

My Nephew is a Yoga master.