C.O.L.D.

Crippling
Overrated
Lame
Dull

I hate the cold. I hate walking in the wind all over campus. I hate that my eyes water in the cold and so when anyone looks at me they look at me with sympathy, as if I was actually crying about something. I hate getting bundled up and then getting to class and sweating myself to death because of the layers. I hate wearing my hood, and having my hair messed up. I hate having to put my hands in my pockets or else they would begin to freeze off. I hate that my nose gets super cold and it stays like that for the next couple minutes while I'm inside. I hate the cold.

Gentleman?

I am really am not a fan of this single time of my life. Its filled with let downs. Sometimes I wish all guys could be gentleman at least. Can't guys have the decency to just make a girl fill like they are appreciated?

This is probably a vent blog...but really...a year and half into college and I haven't been asked on one date. How come no one dates any more? It is all about hanging out. And texting! Everyone uses it as this blocker instead of going out and interacting with people. I just wish someone would give me the chance...

Sorry this is just a soap box for me. The end.

Keep in touch...

I have lived in 3 towns, been in 7 different wards and have met a lot of people. A lot of them have meant a lot to me. So how to "keep in touch" with people is the problem I am faced with. Then on top of that many of them have left on missions or have gotten married and it makes it even harder. I feel deeply about people. I really look at the impact they have had on my life and I forever appreciate them for that impact. I feel the need to keep in touch with them...but it is not easy. Maybe by just living my life by the things they have taught me will be enough of an appreciation. Jefferey Lietchy showed me music and books that are now my all time favorites. Anne Rutherford introduced me to Gilmore Girls and made me realize how unique everyone is and to accept others. Hilary Larsen showed me how to be me and not be ashamed of that. Brandt Nichols motivated me to be the best me at all times. Adriana Ampuero is one of the main reasons why I love to dance my heart out. Bryan Brown has made me realize all the reasons to be happy and love life. Chris Hamilton showed me what it means to really listen and be a good friend.

There are so many more people that have been an influence for good in my life. I love each one of them! A couple of my favorite quotes are:

"Things don't matter...people do"

"Happiness is not getting what you want, but wanting what you have"

I believe people do matter. And I am happy because all I want is what I have had in my life...I couldn't ask for anything better.

Don't know why this post ended up where it did...but I hope that those in my life that I haven't been the best at keeping in touch with...I hope that they know that I think of all of them often because you guys have all become a part of who I am today.

Feelings of Fall

Fall has never been a favorite season of mine, even though it is filled with some of my favorite holidays, I still have never loved it. Fall is a mixture of weather. Some days it will be so cold and snowy that you don't want to leave your house. Other days will be so warm that the heat teases you because you know winter is around the corner and there are snow storms in the way of next spring and summer. Fall is also a mixture of changes. I got out my winter clothes and put my summer ones away. I have started into my midterms which means I am spending more time at the library. And lastly the year is coming to an end. The end of the year is always exciting to me, with a hint of sadness. I like "starting fresh" with the new year, but I also get sad because I know everyone I know is going to be another year older. I love getting older and seeing what each age brings, but I want everyone around me to stay the same. Kristy and Lisa are applying for college right now. My oldest nephew will be 4! And my parents are about to reach 50. Sometimes I wish I could slow down time. Life is always moving and I just have to try and keep up with it.

Because the new year is on its way I have decided a couple of goals that I hope I can accomplish starting them now. Why do we have to wait for a new year to set goal? Here they are:

1. Do P90X for 90 days

2. Go off sugar while I do P90x

3. Run a half marathon in April

Hopefully I can do all these. Wish me luck!

Feelings of the new semester: Not loving school this time around. I feel like my tests and everything are going well, it is just that this semester is the first time I have questioned what I am really going to do with my future. I think that once I know what that is I will be more confident and love school. Also...social life...what is that? Haha. Yeah haven't really found a "group" here yet...still working on it.