Not In Control...

This past month or so has been interesting for me. I have spent a lot of time on my knees and pondering about my life. From little experiences with finding a job, to dating experiences, to tender mercies in a day, I have realized greatly how little control I have over my life. Yes, I can do things that help my life, but my future is greatly in the hands of the Lord.

One thing I have had relearn is attitude is everything. When we have a positive outlook towards life, life seems to be more positive. Crazy, huh? My attitude is in my control. Even though I have situations that arise that should give me great troubles, I feel calm. I know its the Spirit helping me to be positive, and to not lose hope.

Because of this positive outlook, I have felt the need to give back to the Lord. It is a funny goal I started a couple Sundays ago, but any time there is a sign up sheet passed around for something service oriented, I make myself sign up! So far I have helped cleaned the church, helped garden at the temple and made treats at FHE. They haven't been big things, but I feel the little effort I can put in does count for something.

I just feel so grateful for my testimony of Jesus Christ. I always think I understand the Atonement, and the sacrifice that was made, but then something in my life happens, and I realize I have no idea how much love the Savior has for me. I feel it in doses, and it is truly amazing. I wish that more people could feel that love and understand their great worth in the eyes of God. How differently we would act if we fully understood our worth.

I'm excited for my future. Who knows where I will be in 5 years or 10...but one thing I do know is that it is going to be great because Lord has a plan for me! I have very little control over timing and what may happen, and at times it is hard to put my trust in the Lord, but I know that is the only way I can be happy.