All Grownzzed Up

I always have had an admiration for different people. Especially those who seemed to me like they had it all figured out and were the type of people that were unique and it showed. I envied their confidence in their clothing style, personality and everything they did. I always would say, "When I grow up I want to be just like them." I have realized something that I did not realize before. We are all unique, we just show it differently. Some people show it with their clothing style, music style or what not. I have figured out that it is not important. What does matter is that as long as I am confident with who I am nothing else should matter. I still do admire those who are very unique, but I don't envy them any more. I just smile and think to myself, "Good for them." I have to say that looking back from even a couple years I have definitely changed, and it has been for the better.

I never know where these blog posts are going, but I think that's why I love blogs. It really does not matter what you write about as long as its written by you, uniquely you.

Sunday

I am very humbled today. Sometimes I get really selfish and I think I'm the only one who is struggling with this life and I get to a point where I think I know what's best for me. I get impatient and I start getting down about my situation in life. Today I had one of those "ah-ha" moments. Some girl was giving her testimony and talking about her mom who had cancer. I wanted to cry and just leave the room because I felt so selfish. All day I had been fasting for what seemed like "big problems" and I just realized how little they were. I know that my struggles are real and that they mean something to me, but sometimes I get so caught up in them I don't look around to see who may need my help. Why do I think I'm the only one who is not getting asked on dates? Or the only one who is struggling for direction in their life? I am not alone. I know my Heavenly Father loves me, but he also loves everyone around me. I hope and pray that I can be a little less selfish from this day on and try to help others feel loved. I know that today my prayers were answered. Of course they weren't answered in the way I would have liked them to have been, but I know in God's way he answered my prayer. I love this gospel. I love the joy and happiness that is in my life. I love my family and friends. I love the Savior.

I'm just trying my hardest to get a bit better at this thing called life one step at a time.