All Grownzzed Up

I always have had an admiration for different people. Especially those who seemed to me like they had it all figured out and were the type of people that were unique and it showed. I envied their confidence in their clothing style, personality and everything they did. I always would say, "When I grow up I want to be just like them." I have realized something that I did not realize before. We are all unique, we just show it differently. Some people show it with their clothing style, music style or what not. I have figured out that it is not important. What does matter is that as long as I am confident with who I am nothing else should matter. I still do admire those who are very unique, but I don't envy them any more. I just smile and think to myself, "Good for them." I have to say that looking back from even a couple years I have definitely changed, and it has been for the better.

I never know where these blog posts are going, but I think that's why I love blogs. It really does not matter what you write about as long as its written by you, uniquely you.

Sunday

I am very humbled today. Sometimes I get really selfish and I think I'm the only one who is struggling with this life and I get to a point where I think I know what's best for me. I get impatient and I start getting down about my situation in life. Today I had one of those "ah-ha" moments. Some girl was giving her testimony and talking about her mom who had cancer. I wanted to cry and just leave the room because I felt so selfish. All day I had been fasting for what seemed like "big problems" and I just realized how little they were. I know that my struggles are real and that they mean something to me, but sometimes I get so caught up in them I don't look around to see who may need my help. Why do I think I'm the only one who is not getting asked on dates? Or the only one who is struggling for direction in their life? I am not alone. I know my Heavenly Father loves me, but he also loves everyone around me. I hope and pray that I can be a little less selfish from this day on and try to help others feel loved. I know that today my prayers were answered. Of course they weren't answered in the way I would have liked them to have been, but I know in God's way he answered my prayer. I love this gospel. I love the joy and happiness that is in my life. I love my family and friends. I love the Savior.

I'm just trying my hardest to get a bit better at this thing called life one step at a time.

Yoga

My Nephew is a Yoga master.

I'm a Fan

Saw this movie tonight. Laughed and smiled the whole time. I do love good movies. Oh cuss.

Steve Scott

I love my father. Today he gave a talk in Sacrament meeting. While I was listening I couldn't help but tear up because I was so full of joy. My joy was because I knew that I was dearly loved by this man, I knew he was one of the greatest examples in my life and I knew that he had a testimony that Christ lives. My father is a kid at heart and I just love that about it. He loves life and doesn't want to get older. He loves his family and shows it daily. He has sacraficed for my family but I know that he gets most of it back from just seeing his children choose the right. Sometimes when I get discouraged or I am tempted to just give up on things my father usually pops up in my mind. Would he be proud of me? What would he do? I feel a deep connection with my father and I am so grateful for that. I hope to one day marry a man as great as he is. I hope that one day my children can look at my husband and have such great admiration for their father as I have for mine.

I love you Daddy. You are my hero.

Quote

"So you want a heart do you? You don’t know how lucky you are not to have one. Hearts will never be practical until they can be made unbreakable."

--The Wizard of Oz

Found this quote today. I don't know why exactly but I kinda like it. But I think we are lucky to have "hearts." Its what makes life worthwhile. Yeah we get hurt or think illogically because of them, but that's okay. We live, we learn and all the while we love.