Island in the Sun

So I found out where I want to live when I "grow up."

Its the green house...on its own little Island! How cool would that be? It is between New York and Canada! There is this place with over 1,000 little islands...and many of them have houses on them. So I have decided this green house is mine. I cannot wait to live there! And I must say...I love that the house is green. Everyone can come visit me by boat...ya. Woot. Woot.

Chocolate

"Chocolate" by Snow Patrol has always been one of my all time favorite songs. Here are the lyrics:

This could be the very minute
I'm aware I'm alive
All these places feel like home

With a name I'd never chosen
I can make my first steps
As a child of 25

This is the straw, final straw in the
Roof of my mouth as I lie to you
Just because I'm sorry doesn't mean
I didn't enjoy it at the time

You're the only thing that I love
It scares me more every day
On my knees I think clearer

Goodness knows I saw it coming
Or at least I'll claim I did
But in truth I'm lost for words

What have I done it's too late for that
What have I become truth is nothing yet
A simple mistake starts the hardest time
I promise I'll do anything you ask...this time

Love it...the music video puts the whole song together:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B9mEznKZvkw

This song can be interpreted in so many ways. I think it’s called chocolate...because many people love chocolate, even though they knows it is not good for them. I think we all have those guilty pleasures in life that we probably would be better without having.

In the song it’s obvious the person has made mistakes, but wants to become better for the one he loves. In the music video it is the end of the world...and it’s showing everyone in their last few minutes of life. What would you do? Who would you apologize to? What would you say? Who would you spend your time with?

I have always loved the philosophy of not putting off something that you want to do or say. Life is too short to wait around for the perfect moment...the perfect moment is now! So live your life they way you want your life to turn out as. (hope that made sense)

Also....what does disappointment come from? Having expectations. I always get hurt or disappointed cause I expected too much. I wish I could expect nothing, so when something great does happen...it’s just that much greater!

The World You Love

This all may seem totally cheesy or what not...but this is what is truly on my mind. Today I watched Stardust. I have loved this movie since the first time I saw it in theaters. There is this quote that Yvaine says in the movie. She says:

"You know when I said I knew little about love? That wasn't true. I know a lot about love. I've seen it, seen centuries and centuries of it, and it was the only thing that made watching your world bearable. All those wars. Pain, lies, hate... Made me want to turn away and never look down again. But to see the way that mankind loves... I mean, you could search to the furthest reaches of the universe and never find anything more beautiful. So, yes, I know that love is unconditional. But I also know it can be unpredictable, unexpected, uncontrollable, unbearable and strangely easy to mistake for loathing, and... What I'm trying to say, Tristan, is... I think I love you. My heart... It feels like my chest can barely contain it. Like it doesn't belong to me any more. It belongs to you. And if you wanted it, I'd wish for nothing in exchange — no gifts, no goods, no demonstrations of devotion. Nothing but knowing you loved me, too. Just your heart, in exchange for mine."

I love this. Sometimes in this world its easy to get down about all the evil that is happening around us. I know its simple, but the Beatles say it best when they say, "All you need is love." I know the love that I have for the people in my life feels endless. As Yvaine explains, "It feels like my chest can barely contain it." I am going to hold on to that love. I hope my friends and family know how much I love them. I would do anything for them. I hope more people in this world know how it is to love and be loved. I think its a beautiful thing. 

This world is a beautiful place and there is so much to live for!

---Side note: Watched American Idol tonight...I really hope Kris wins, but I have a horrible feeling Adam will. We will see tomorrow night!

Click, Click, Click, Click

Like they say...a picture says a thousand words. So far this is the longest blog for me...4,018 words and counting! 

I do love Southern Utah. Its great!!

Summer has come and gone so fast for me. Basically my 2 trips this summer were Moab and Bryce Canyon. Starting soon I'll be working 40 hours a week, and well there goes my summer! I hope to go to Disneyland sometime this summer. So maybe my summer is not over quite yet!

I have figured out that I love Random. I really do. 

Dreams: Lately I have been having the MOST realistic dreams its ridiculous! I keep confusing reality with my dreams. Also, I usually don't remember my dreams and I am now vividly remembering them! Crazy stuff. 

Total words in this blog: 4,131 

In Memory of...

Today is the year anniversary of George Wright’s death. Just a little background for those who don't know...George was like my second dad. The Wrights and my family have been close ever since I was like 2. George's daughter is Sabrina, she has been like sister since I was 2 years old. Overall, I couldn't call the Wright family just friends, they are Family to me. When George died it was unexpected/expected...He had been struggling with Cancer for 2 years, but he ended up dying of a Heart Attack. May 11, 2008 was Mother's Day. I remember going to church that day, and my dad telling my sisters and me the news of George's death. I had never experience death so close before. It changed my life. I learned what really matters: family. I learned not to take advantage of life's little joys like movies, friends, laughter, food, ect. At George's funeral I left wanting to be a better person. George was one of those people that when he came into a room, his personality was bigger than the room. He loved everyone like they were his family. He was tough on people because he knew they could be better than him. He was not a perfect man, but he tried his hardest to influence others to be perfect. He loved movies. Because of him I love going to midnight premiers, talking about movies for hours and just sitting and watching movies at anytime of the day. Even though George is not physically in my life, he will always be in life. I will miss him when I go to Kale's (his youngest son) mission farewell, or when I go to Sabrina's wedding. I will even miss him at my wedding, and the family gatherings our families will have in the future. President Hinckley said, “Life is to be enjoyed, not just endured." I believe that’s how George lived life. George I hope you knew how much I loved and admired you as a Father, Husband, and Friend. Love you George.

On my mind...

1. Family: tonight I went to my younger sister's presentation of getting their YW medallion...all I could think of was how grateful I am for my amazing family. Kyle is one of my heroes--I admire him in every way. Denae is one of the nicest, sweetest, kindest person I know and I'm so grateful that she is the example I get to look up to. Both Kristy and Lisa are so passionate in everything they do and I admire their courage as they face life’s difficulties. My parents...I couldn't have asked for better ones. They are the reason I strive to do my best, and are always there to support me.

2. Summer: I want it to be hot! I am excited for what this upcoming summer will bring. It will be sad because many of my friends are leaving on missions...but I feel like good things are coming my way.

3. Moab: Tomorrow I leave for Moab and I'm stoked!!!!

4. George Wright: His year mark of his death is coming up and I keep thinking about him. I miss George and my memory of him will live with me throughout my life. There are some people that we are privileged to know...and I count myself very privileged to have known such an amazing man.

5. Music: I think music is always on my mind. I love listening to music. Right now I'm obsessed with Adele. I feel like I can't ever get sick of hearing her amazing voice.

6. Disneyland: About a month or so ago I started to have this strong desire to go to Disneyland. So if anyone wants to go with me...I'm in.

7. Travis: I think of my cousin Travis more than one would guess. I pray that he can ask for the help he needs.

8. Quote: "Live your life, don't let your life live you."

New Job

So last night I tried to go to bed at 10:30 so that I would be well rested for my day...I didn't fall asleep til past 1 a.m. When my alarm went off at 8:45 a.m., it felt like I had gotten 2 hrs of sleep. I ran to the shower to go wake myself up a bit, and while I was in the shower I got a bloody nose. What the heck? I never get them. I think I have gotten them a couple times while living in Utah, but before that I barely knew what a bloody nose was! So I finished getting ready and I was off to my new job. I clocked it, and it took me 35 minutes to drive there. Oh ya...my new job is Admission Supervisor at Raging Waters. I am still not sure what that means, but I will probably learn very soon. When I got there, I got a tour of the office and learned how to deal with answering phones. Then I worked with Shannon--she is my "boss"--and I helped put together these letters. Basically my day sounds really short, but somehow I work 4 hours. The people I work with are fun and nice! I think I will enjoy this job.

Lately I have been procrastinating writing letters to missionaries. I have a total of about 13 friends out, but I only write to about 8 of them, and out of the 8, only 2 I really have been faithful about. So right now I have 5 letters waiting for me to respond! I have had them since end of March/beginning of April. Ooops. But I have a good excuse: Finals. Finals put me behind in everything!

Tomorrow is my day off...any suggestion of what I should do? I'm thinking of cleaning my room, writing those letters....but really...I doubt I will do any of that. I leave for Moab Thursday and I am soooooooo excited. I love Moab and I love jeeping. The end.